Read with me: Covet by Tracy Wolff CH. 1-90

     Let me start out by saying this is my first ever blog, and as new and exciting as it is to begin, it is also terrifying, like, finding out all the monsters from your childhood closets have come to life. Of all the books I have read so far, I feel as though I can identify with our beloved main character more than I ever have before. I read Crave and Crush, and it was only until I started reading Covet, that I realized, I needed to get my pent-up emotions out somewhere. And what better way than to post it on the internet where everyone in the universe can see it. 

    I've decided I want to review Crave and Crush, but felt it would be easier starting with the book I'm currently reading. So, SPOLIER ALERT, if you haven't ready either of them, I suggest finishing them and coming back, cause lord knows you'll probably be all in your feels. Now, I know, I posted this would be chapters 1-90, but I don't plan on dragging each page out for you. I mostly want to hit the highlights, all the WTF moments, and all the times I wanted to throw the book in frustration. 

    I bought Crave on a whim at the local Walmart, expecting to add it to my TBR list and potentially get to it sometime next year. Boy, am I glad I didn't. From the moment I entered the world of Katmere Academy I was enticed by it. It definitely gave me magical, whimsical, dangerous Hogwarts vibes mixed with my ever favorite brooding vampires and obnoxious werewolves. I was also delighted to find we would also get to know and love other creatures of the night. I will say reading Crave gave off a sort of Twilight vibe I was most definitely not hear for. I get it, boy meets girl, boy saves girl over and over and over, girl falls in love with boy. Same old same old. So I was equally as shocked and as excited when Grace sacrificed herself for Jaxon at the end. Mind blown.

    That very night I ordered books 2-4 and never looked back. Crush was even more satisfying to me. I had read a lot of reviews good and bad so I wasn't sure what to expect at first. And let me just tell you, I wouldn't have believed you, if you told me I would be fangirling over the Vega boys MORE than the Salvatore brothers. It's exactly what it reminded me of. And I was even more thrilled to find Grace was nothing like Elena was, no offense to her. Grace is a complete bad ass. I will however say I am just enthralled with Hudson as I was with Damen in Vampire Diaries. Something about the hot, vampire guy doing the wrong things for the right reasons, really lights a fire for me. I was just as lovestruck with Jaxon at first, but somehow Hudson seems to shine threw to me more than I was expecting. I've never wanted to be a gargoyle more. 

    So, on to book 3, Covet. I'm not going to lie I was a little disappointed we got to miss the show down between the brothers after Hudson admitted Grace is his mate. I was ready for a steamy, adrenaline pumping show down between them. Unfortunately, we missed that, and it was replaced with the heart wrenching moments of the realization that Xavier was dead. I was really upset for Macy but the show, as always, must go on. 

    And it did in a major way. Jaxon, who seemingly always knows what's best for everyone, breaks up with Macy. To me, I had seen a trend of Jaxon always making the decisions for her, always asking her opinion but never asking, and of course we know, he cared about her and wanted to keep her safe. But, I feel like he refused to hear her in the moments of their demise. It angered me. They were, maybe still are, in love, yet he just decides this is what it to happen. It was heart wrenching, but since book 2 we had seen Grace grow from this small, sad human into this strong, amazing woman that didn't need to be treated like she would break at even the slightest of touches. I felt she outgrew Jaxon. A lot of people believe she was flirting with Hudson in book 2 and treating Jaxon disrespectively, and though she could have done things differently, it still doesnt change the fact she grew, she became a different person. And that I am all the way here for. 

    Chapter 9 we find ourselves in the library with Grace and Hudson, and the tension, I could feel it from where I was nestled on my couch. Somehow their bantering, flirting, angst, whatever you wanna call it lights a fire in me, because there is passion behind it that you can feel with every word that leaves their mouths. You can tell how confused they are by their situations, how hard they're battling right and wrong when all you want to do is scream, "Just kiss her already!".

    So, now we must jump forward to our meeting with the Bloodletter, who come on, someone out their has to agree she is playing a game no one is aware of yet. I haven't been able to piece all the puzzle pieces together, but there is another force at play I just know it. Kind of like I have a feeling she was actually hoping Hudson would come back, call me crazy if you want, you'll see. Also, how can I not be suprised Grace and Jaxon's mate bond was forged, there was something to trying about their relationship for me. It felt like trying to breathe while treading water instead of fresh air. 

    Jumping forward AGAIN because I know this post is already way to long, I want to take you on a little detour to page 176. Hudson playing "Love-Hate-Sex-Pain" had me letting out a long, long deep breath. This mans. I swear this author looked up my exact type in an encyclopedia and made Hudson. If you haven't listened to it, do it and tell me what you think. Insert hot emoji. Also, I should probably apologize to my actual boyfriend, and maybe attend a church service.  

    Anyway, not to make matters worse for myself, we then swore as fast as dragons to page 275, "'Why?' I whisper. 'So you can go off and build an even bigger wall between us?' 'Because if you don't, I'm going to do something we both regret.' to page 276, 'Oh yeah?' I ask, and it's as much a dare as it is a question. 'And what if I want you to? What would you even do?' I get one moment-one moment- to see all that emotion jump the chain he hold on it. And then he's moving toward me, his hands coming up to cup my cheeks. 'This.' he snarls, right before he slams his mouth down to mine."

    I also felt like my world exploded. The passion that oozes off of Hudson has me scared as much as Grace would have been in that moment. Not scared of him, though he can be terrifying, no, scared of the feelings. I was also just about jumping for joy that this was finally happening for them. They both deserve it. And the second birthday present was sweet.

    So again, jumping forward because I decided it was a good idea to cover all the basis, we get to the Dragon Court, and honestly, I hope no one was suprised at Hudson getting the lock up. I mean come on. But, I still haven't decided if I trust Nuri. I understand her agenda to an extent, but I have no disbelief she has any intention of helping anyone but herself and her court. I just hope Grace is naive enough to think the opposite.

    Random side note here, there are very rare circumstances you will find me actually laughing out loud while reading, but let me tell you, the note Hudson sent along with the ballgowns had me laughing and quite honestly blushing. Now we never do get to find out if she played his game that far, but I sure as hell know what I would have done. 

    I also found myself laughing on page 367, '"Bro." Flint narrows his eyes. 'Unhand the shawarma nd no one gets hurt.'" Firstly, does anyone here know what a shawarma is? And secondly, Flint as always made me crack up a bit, but I honestly still don't know if I trust him. I feel like he is the herioc type and would do what he believes is right, and then regret it, time and time again, just like with trying to kill Grace. And I feel like he would blindly trust Nuri. Time will only tell if I will truely trust him again. Also, him and Luca are adorable. 

    For my final thought, I want to take you back to page 363, "One, I feel more for Hudson Vega than I ever imagined I would. And two, I can never, ever tell him." Okay, how many times have we watched our characters keep their feelings from the other and have it either blow up in their face, or not have the chance to tell them. I want to scream at Grace for this. I understand she is scared and doesn't want to get hurt, but I also feel like not telling Hudson the truth, or herself, is not the way to go. I may or may not be a little biased toward Hudson but still. I feel like it's going to come to a moment when one of them is dying, and what good is it in that moment, it's selfish.

    So currently as it sits. I totally ship Grace and Hudson. Jaxon is freaking me out a little bit, like is he going to turn his back on them? Why is he so distant? I don't trust Nuri, half trust Flint, and am nervous we are going to lose another friend by the time the book is over. I believe atleast Hudson is going to prison. At first, I thought Grace would go with him, but he would never let that happen. So, perhaps she has to try and break him out?

    Thanks for the read and please, please leave me your thoughts. And please no spoilers. I'm sorry this one was so long, I promise the next one will be shorter!